I love you, Mom.
Honestly, my mom is one of the only people to be there for me throughout my life. No matter what, she’s always there to talk. I seriously love her. On my way to take my permit test the other day, i was all excited since i knew i was going to pass, and my band were playing our first show, so i asked her if she was going. She frowned and said, “I figure i need to tell you now..”. Naturally, i asked what she needed to tell me. She then told me why she’s been having memory problems lately and why she’s been unable to do as much. She said she possibly has MS. I had no idea what it was, and asked her. She told me it wasn’t much and that i shouldn’t worry, and that she was getting a spinal tap to check if she has it or not. I went home and looked up what it really was, and i couldn’t help but cry. Hell, I’m crying as i type this. Basically what it does is makes you constantly depressed, confines you to a wheelchair eventually, coordination problems, memory loss, pain all over, trouble chewing and swallowing, and much more. Meaning if she has it, she could possibly die…I have never been so scared in my life. We now have to wait 3 weeks for her results to come back. I don’t know what to do…I’m not ready to lose my mom.
I dont know why i even fucking try.
Every time i just end up getting hurt. Holy shit, PA girls, you all suck…
I give up. If you want to be a fucking bitch, that’s your own damn problem.
